The promise I made lastyear...
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I oath to write more this year.
I do not consider myself as a constructive writer or even an amateur one. I just realized that this was a gift given to me by God as my emotional channel.
Little did I know that most people, when they read it, gets the same exact emotion I had when I wrote it.
So I told Him as I pray, Lord when this gush of emotion is calling me out to spread your Good News, use my abilities to inspire people and inject the love that is crying out for you.
I had a fresh start of writing reflections for the Novena Mass in ’09 and send it out to my colleagues at work. God told me to start at my workplace. Everyone is pressured and bounded by the task they do. Most of the time, I know that reflection time is somehow being set aside. Others are too depressed and feels sunk in their problems. While others make use gossip as their way to release stress.
I feel sad for them, not because I feel righteous (NOT AT ALL) nor because I feel too good about myself. I feel the melancholy because I know there is so much thirsting for LOVE. God is telling me to inspire and share that love in the way that He created me.
Big challenge!
But with the trust I have with our Lord, I know He’ll be my Boss! So I said YES.
I tried to be as general as possible. I want everyone will be inspired and not feel less of them. I do not want to be seen as someone trying to be righteous. I want to tell them that I am TOO is a SINNER, striving to love God at my best because I know He LOVED ME FIRST.
BIG MISTAKE
At times, pressed with time to write, I copy paste reflections from volunteer writers of I received from my e-mail. I told myself that this is the message God wants them to have. It's not me, so even if when I don't read it and filter, the message is for them. Then The Challenge came, I accidentally have offended someone due to a gender issue.
People are talking and my manager knew about what happened. As expected, there was a dialogue and I was asked to stop.
I understand why I was asked to. I was really torn because that same day I received a lot of replies about thanksgiving and how they were inspired with what I daily send. Some of them told me that they print it and read it before they sleep. I was crying in my workspace silently but happy to know God is consoling me.
He did not promise that days will always be happy but what He promised is He will always be there.
What will I do now?
I decided to keep it cool for a while. And those days I just prayed for strength.
THE IMPACT OF GOD's WORK
There were times friends and co-workers will approach me and ask where my “Thoughts for the day” are. A group of friends also shared that they are discussing it over coffee. I was shocked; I didn’t know that there was an impact, that kind of Impact. Then, realization came, I have to continue but this time it will be just simple, short and more-corporate-looking statements. And to create another channel with wider range of audience.
I decided not just to send it to my office mates via e-mail. I decided to post them in the worldwide web.
I started writing in my Facebook Notes, then learned about WordPress, and then Blogger. Amazing how to see my friends in all walks of life as they were touched and inspired, some of those who are close to me was also inspired to write. Others, decided to also make use of their talents to evangelize....
How grateful my heart is.... that the promise I made last year as a gift was also made as a gift to others.
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